Dear mama bear,
I know I’ve written you many letters before and you know how much I admire you. But this year, I have been reflecting on who you are as a woman, your years before you became a mama and a wife and how it all led up to the rock star Proverbs 31 woman that you are now.
You have always been so vibrant and multi-talented and of course, drop dead gorgeous. When I look back on all your pictures; it blows my mind that you didn’t understand the beauty and power you carried for so long. God blessed you so abundantly and people didn’t understand where you fit in, because you didn’t fit into a box. I’ve watched you be misunderstood, overlooked and judged since I was young and it hurts me to think this caused self-doubt in your little girls’ heart and to question your identity.
You are brilliant, creative, quick-witted, free spirited, funny and can basically do anything. And when I say anything, I mean: cook, bake, sew, make clothes, paint, fix things, change a tire, manage a household, teach choir, write musicals, make babies stop crying, plan a wedding with proper southern etiquette, decorate with class & style, travel the world with one small carry-on suitcase & still have everything you need, heal the sick, empower your husband & sing, act, dance, play tennis and still do handstands. I know I’m missing like 20 other things too.
So basically, I’ll never be able to live up to who you are & hopefully my husband is okay with that!
All you ever wanted and still want is to be loved, accepted and considered. I want you to know that none of your God breathed talents, strength of spirit and resilience has been overlooked by your children.
It wouldn’t surprise me if you sometimes feel under appreciated and over-worked. But you are the first person I have always called my whole life, to celebrate or to cry. I just want to thank you for dreaming with me, for being my sustainer, driver, care-taker, cook, encourager, theatrical & musical director, hair-roller, interview coach, nurturer, back-scratcher, lullaby singer, bed time story reader and tradition keeper.
Thank you for raising me with the knowledge of the love of Jesus. Thank you for helping me see my worth and giving me the understanding as to why I was mistreated or rejected from an early age. Thank you for saving me from grief by guiding me in how to handle relationships and setting high standards.
Thank you for showing me that true wisdom is learning from other people’s mistakes and that I don’t always have to make my own. Thank you for telling me I was beautiful when my face was covered in cystic acne. Thank you giving me the book, “Secrets to an Irresistible Woman,” when I was in the 8th grade that taught me to set Godly priorities over the approval of a boy.
Thank for exposing me to basically every extracurricular activity under the sun, but never making me feel pressured. And thank you for having the DNA of a winner. Even when you don’t see yourself this way, because you’re really hard on yourself, you are a million times more of a winner in God’s eyes than most celebrities or household names. You have truly stored up your treasures in Heaven where moth and dust can’t destroy. If there were a Mother of the Lifetime Award, it would definitely go to you. I love you so much.
On Mother’s Day I usually write you a poem or send you a over sized card accompanied by flowers delivered by a stranger. This year I wanted to do something different. I wanted to write you a letter. So much has happened in my life over this past year and you have been…undeniably incredible. I’ve been going out of my comfort zone more and learning what life is really about. I couldn’t be taking these steps if it weren’t for you. When I would fall when I was first learning to walk, you’d pick me up and direct me in the right path again. You never stopped picking me up. And I fell A LOT. You never ever gave up on me. Even when I had my dark, ugly moments you saw that there was a ember of light inside me. You believed that that ember would overcome the darkness and no matter how closed off I was to you you were always there. And like the story of the prodigal son you welcomed me back into your arms without a question.
You’re unrelenting love, your compassion, you’re strength have been so encouraging over all these years. I wouldn’t be the woman that I am today if it weren’t for you. That ember has grown into a wild fire of permanent light and I have you and The Lord, who you introduced me to, to thank. Nothing can get me down because I have you both on my side. I don’t know what it’s like to be a mother yet but you’ve given me the best example of what a mother should be. Thank you for being my amazing mother, for raising me with God and preparing me for future motherhood. I love you so much.
I can’t thank you just for being a wonderful mother, because that wouldn’t do it justice. You raised me to be driven, determined, and daring. You gave me your inner beauty and creative mind. I have your passion for travel and adventure. You made damn sure that I knew I could do absolutely anything even if it was in my wildest dreams. And you know what? I’m over halfway there. I know I’ll reach the moon because of the launching pad you’ve built for me.
I have always said that I want to raise my children exactly the way I was raised. But then again I also have always said that I don’t want to have kids because I know it’s impossible for them to be as cute as us. Either way, it’s a compliment. Your four children have all turned out pretty great last time I checked and I pray to The Good Lord that I can be the example that you have been to us. You endured jealousy, setbacks, hardships, losses, and heartbreaks, but not without a purpose. The lessons you have taught me have been priceless and will be passed along to your grandchildren.
I love you mama, thank you for sacrificing so much for me. Our walks on the beach, tears over The Holiday, grocery store trips, and travels together are never taken for granted and some of my favorite memories.
Happy Mother’s Day Mommie!! We love you SOOOO much!