How To Be Loved When You Don’t Measure Up

In Devotions by Rachel Linch7 Comments

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Grace. It’s a hard thing for us to wrap our heads around, it’s difficult to understand, but it is one
of the best feelings when you just feel the grace of Jesus wash over you. Like a flood, it rushes over
you – He pours out His love for you. There is no checklist. There is no rubric to follow. There is no
“that person is better than me and I am not worth it,” thought about it. His grace is enough. His grace
will always be enough. His grace saves you from the deepest and darkest pits in life and brings you
back to life in His light.

A couple of months ago I was idolizing this world in ways I never thought I would. I was
idolizing Godly relationships I saw because I wasn’t in one, I was idolizing un-Godly men because I
was unhappy with God’s timing for my “fairytale,” I was running away from Christ. I was running
from His grace, from His goodness, and from His love. This is never an easy thing to admit, but I know
that I am not the only one who has ever ran.

I didn’t feel worthy of His grace. I didn’t feel like I met the
benchmark to receive such a good and precious gift from Him. I was lost, alone, and empty. I needed
something to change. During this time I was in a dark pit, but no one noticed because I was really good
at putting on a front. I acted like things were going perfect, I only talked about the good parts of my life
– but never discussed my struggles.

One night it hit me hard that I had lost Jesus, I lost the
overwhelming feeling of His abundant grace. I let it slip through my fingers months before that. For at
least four months I was living off a checklist I had made up in my head – even though time and time
again before those four months of my life I had heard the verse – “For it is by grace you have been
saved, through faith–and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God”
(Ephesians 2:8) countless
times. I thought I had understood it, but no I didn’t.

One night I decided enough was enough and living in the darkness was no longer an option. It
was draining me and I could feel something tug at my heart. At that point I started doing my quiet
times again, I started loving others, I started seeking the Lord more than I ever had before – not
because I had to so I could receive His grace, but because I wanted to finally grow more in Him
because I had felt so empty without Him.

A few months after I started pursuing Him harder than I ever
had before and one day when I was listening to a Christian radio station the song “Never Once” by
Matt Redman came on. The lyrics “Never once did we ever walk alone. Never once did You leave us
on our own. You are faithful, God, You are faithful. You are faithful, God, You are faithful”
hit me
like a ton of bricks and tears started flooding out of my eyes. This was God’s way of telling me that He
never left me, He didn’t leave me alone in the dark – I was just too busy idolizing other things to notice
Him nudging me back to Him in any way He could. He didn’t leave me because five years before that I
accepted Him into my heart – I received His grace, not because I met criteria on a checklist, not
because I got a 100% on the rubric after every day I lived – but because I had faith in Him.

Sisters, it’s time we start having faith in Him. It’s time we stop thinking that we aren’t worthy.
It’s time to receive His grace with an open and thankful heart. Grace is an overwhelming concept to
grasp, but it’s a beautiful gift by the King of Kings to His children. You are His child and He loves you
so much – receive this beautiful gift and thank Him daily for it.

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Comments

  1. Lynn

    Thank you so much for your words. I have felt the same way. Empty. Lonely. Not worthy of God’s grace. Mark Redmond’s song has also been a song that has reminded me daily that I’m not alone! God never leaves our side. I have to put my faith in Christ that He is working out my life according to HIS plan not mine and although I may have all these feelings HE knows what lies ahead of me. Thank you once again!

    1. Rachel Linch

      Thank you so much for read it. I am so glad this touched you the way that it did. Remember God’s grace covers you every single day – His mercies are new each morning and you are not alone! God will never leave you – keep the faith, Lynn!

  2. Gynger

    Sitting in my car crying! This is what I am experiencing, that you for your obedience and returning to your first love. This has blessed me more than you know! I have neglected my time with Jesus loosing faith and feeling depressed, also my attention is stuck on so many other things bit him I want to experience that defining moment as you have. Thank you Rachel! 🙂

    1. Rachel Linch

      Wow! Just, wow – Gynger, thank you for being so vulnerable! One of the biggest reasons I was obedient in writing this post is because I had faith that it was going to touch lives and even if it just touched yours I am so thankful that Jesus could use me to speak His words into your life! You are a beautiful daughter of the King and you are more precious than jewels! Keep chasing after Him! 🙂

  3. Casey

    I cannot believe you perfectly described exactly what I have been going through lately. I’ve felt so empty during these past several weeks, and it is exactly because of that; I didn’t feel I ‘earned’ enough to receive such blessings from God to the point I didn’t believe I was special enough to receive them. I felt like a disappointment to Him. I was busy idolizing things. When I crawled back to Him in tears, I felt loved and whole again. I had left my first Love, and I was really feeling the results of it. Only He satisfies my longings. No one or nothing else does.

  4. mari

    wow!!!! Exactly what I am going through. Gave me so much hope. And faith He did not forget ne at all.

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