It can be frustrating listening to a talk or message on God’s great purpose and dream for our lives when we feel confused as to what our purpose even is. We may have the faint vision of what we want to be, but nothing in our life, not even our own skill set is ready for it yet.
Maybe like you, it was hard for me to narrow down exactly what I was made for because I have a skill set and interest in several areas. I love performing in musical theatre, singing, politics and acting. Partly the reason my dream of becoming Miss USA remained so consistent was because I could combine almost all of my interests in that job. I figured I could be Miss USA for a year and that would help me decide what I wanted to do.
When I moved to LA, I still didn’t have a clear career direction so I set my sights on TV hosting because I knew I could do it well. I took hosting classes, got a hosting agent, made a reel, took film/TV classes for acting, got a theatrical manager, went on auditions and booked a few jobs in those first few years. I was modeling and doing commercials, which were great, but it didn’t fulfill me. The feeling of emptiness and frustration set in because I wasn’t operating in my purpose. I felt a bit aimless.
In the meantime, I began pursuing a deeper relationship with God again. The more God revealed Himself to me, the more I felt the burning desire to share His love with other women.
One day, I had an ah-hah moment when I saw all my life events, my strengths, passions and interests come together. I felt a longing to inspire women in the same way God had inspired me. Joyce Meyer had a huge impact on my life. I love how candidly she speaks, how unapologetically opinionated she is, how she operates her ministry and travels the world. Just like Miss USA had been my childhood role-model, Joyce Meyer became my new role-model.
God had finally revealed clearly to me that my calling was to combine my love of performing and communicating with my love for God and women. I agreed in my heart.
Three years after being Miss USA I had figured it out, I knew my purpose! Now what? I comprised a plan of how I was going to do this and it started with writing through my personal blog.
I sat down at the computer and readied my fingers over the keyboard. Nothing came. There was a block, like a wall up. Nothing was coming. Nothing was flowing.
I felt so discouraged and confused. I knew what my purpose was, but now I needed to do it! Why couldn’t I?
Can you relate? Do you feel like you know what you were made for, do you have that desire, but you feel like you don’t know where to begin? And even when you do, it feels like there is resistance?
In my despair, I read a Joyce Meyer devotional one morning. The devotional talked about seasons, specifically seasons of preparation. I had never heard of that before. There are seasons where we have to go under cover so God can grow us, teach us, prune us and prepare us for the next step. He loves us too much to let us launch too quickly into something we aren’t ready for.
We may think we are ready, but God knows best. Of course, we will never fully arrive until the day we meet Jesus, but there is a certain level that needs to be in place before God graduates us from the training ground.
God says that he will hide us in the shadow of His wings to protect us. He may be hiding you right now, just like a flower hides in the winter for protection so it can bloom again in the spring.
It is crucial for our success and well-being to understand that there are different seasons we go through. The book of Ecclesiastes says there is a time for everything under the sun. You may be in a season of preparation right now. If not, there will be a time that you do go into one.
God couldn’t launch me into speaking and writing in His name until my character was refined to match the task. I still had a lot of preparing to do, not only on my character, but in my knowledge and understanding of the Bible.
God took me into a long season of studying the Word every day, journaling, reading Christian inspiration books and bible studies with wiser, older women.
In what ways do you need to grow? What things can you do now to prepare you for what you want to step into?
As a daughter of the King, you have the desire to have meaning and purpose. You were made for it. You may get down on yourself because you don’t feel the peace to move on it yet, but that is because you are probably in a season of preparation. Give yourself grace and be willing to open your eyes to see the areas in your life God wants to grow you.
Once I read that devotion, it gave me permission to relax and rest in that season of preparation. Finally one day, as I was praying, I felt Him lift the wall and say, “GO.” I raced to my laptop and logged in to my blog account to begin writing. My sense was right. The words began to flow from my mind through my fingertips onto the computer screen. He had released me into the next step of my purpose!
Since then, there have definitely been seasons when He brings me back to be quiet and still again to work out a roadblock or challenge. It can be discouraging, but now that I understand seasons, I’m able to release the need to control or steam ahead. I know that I need to be quenched like the flowers in April showers or go into rest like some animals in the winter.
Be aware of what season you are in and give yourself the grace to be there. Pay attention to what God wants to do it and partner with Him. The more in tune you are with how God works and what He is doing, the more quickly you will be able to get in step with Him in peace.
What season are you in?
Accepting Your Seasons = The Sparkle Effect
Thank you for the purpose you have pre-destined for my life. Lord, I have the longing to expand and glorify your Kingdom. I want you to use me, but I also want to bring honor to your name. Lord, thank you much for protecting me. Thank you so much for seasons, because they are for my good. I don’t always like change, but I know that I will not fully partake in your splendor if I don’t embrace change. Please show me what season I am in and grant me the ability to trust you as you grow me. God, show me when it is time to rest, time to act and time to prepare. Thank you for loving me enough to protect me when I am not ready to act. In Jesus name, Amen.
He changes times and seasons; he removes kings and sets up kings; he gives wisdom to the wise and knowledge to those who have understanding. Daniel 2:21 ESV
While the earth remains, seedtime and harvest, cold and heat, summer and winter, day and night, shall not cease. Genesis 8:22 ESV
And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9 ESV
He is like a tree planted by streams of water that yields its fruit in its season, and its leaf does not wither. In all that he does, he prospers. Psalm 1:3 ESV
“For as the rain and the snow come down from heaven and do not return there but water the earth, making it bring forth and sprout, giving seed to the sower and bread to the eater, so shall my word be that goes out from my mouth; it shall not return to me empty, but it shall accomplish that which I purpose, and shall succeed in the thing for which I sent it. Isaiah 55:10-11
For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven. Ecclesiastes 3:1
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