“When you realize your self-worth, beauty, & joy in Christ, you have the fearlessness to step into your destiny & reign.”
A powerful quote that was shared by Kristen Dalton, creator of SheisMore. Today, insecurity is such a huge challenge in people’s lives; especially women. We often compare ourselves, determine our self-worth, or even find ways to feel sorry for ourselves. A lot of us are unique in certain ways that make us feel isolated. The list goes on where people get their insecurities, but why can’t we learn to accept them?
Being partially deaf has always made my life more difficult than others and majority of the people who meet me will truly never understand the daily challenges I face. As you can imagine, I have my own insecurities that I have dealt with because I used to struggle with how society viewed me or how I would be treated at times. You would think that it would get easier when you get into the “workforce” but that was a big no! I can’t tell you how many times I have been let go or not given an opportunity based on the simple fact that I am partially deaf.
I know what you’re thinking, “That’s illegal!” Yes, you are correct, but that’s why they won’t actually say that. I was recently released on a job that I absolutely loved and worked so hard at it then one day, I was fired unexpectedly and they couldn’t even give me a logical reason why.
The truth is, if I make one mistake on the job, a lot of people assume that it was because of my disability. It leads them to thinking I am incapable of fixing my mistakes so they won’t try to help me at all instead they would rather let me go than rationalize the issue. That’s only a quarter of what I have to deal with.
The truth of it is the world tries to treat me like a crippled person, but I refuse to be treated that way. I have learned that it doesn’t matter how much I hate being treated that way or dream of a life with normal hearing; it isn’t who I am. Making the decision to accept my own insecurities & differences has made me stronger as a person and proven many people wrong!
“Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour” -1 Peter 5:8
This verse above is crystal clear in why you may have felt like you can’t conquer your insecurities. Evil loves to prowl on the weak and attack them in their weakest moments. When you are constantly feeling sorry for yourself, wondering if you will ever be good enough, or consistently thinking about what you don’t have; he will try to get you so caught up in the negativity, you suddenly can’t see a way out. It is easier said than done, but what are you waiting on?
The truth behind it all is no one else can solve your internal battle other than yourself. You have to make the decision that you’re worth more than what you’re choosing to deal with, so refuse to stay like this! If you always think negatively it doesn’t matter what happens; you will continue to bring yourself back down.
We have to understand that having “everything” or being like everyone else is just overrated. Where’s the fun in being like everyone else? You have to seek the positive in all aspects of life and learn to love who you are inside and out! You were made the way you are for a reason and you won’t ever learn what the reason is until you tune out the world and your self-hatred thoughts.
“You are the light of the world, a town built on a hill cannot be hidden” –Mathew 5:14
Here’s a funny story that I have to share with you. When I first started flying with my boyfriend to places, we had to book our flights a different way than the general public since he works for Delta. Normally, I would always check the box that says “hearing impaired” so that the crewmembers were aware. We took a flight to New York last year and while getting off the plane, my boyfriend stopped behind me and began to call my name to get my attention. I turned around and noticed he was directing me to come towards him to look at something while it looked like he was holding back his laughter. As I got to him, he pointed and said, “Kayla…look!”, the second I noticed what I was looking at; I began laughing. It was a gentleman standing behind a wheel chair with a small board in his hand that read “Kayla Moore”. Yes, they went there and actually thought that I was incapable of walking since I was partially deaf!
I swear that story never gets old, but the point I am making is that you have to learn to laugh at yourself and your imperfections. I could have been upset and hurt, but I would have missed out on a perfectly good moment to laugh with my boyfriend. It wasn’t worth it.
“Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is-His good, pleasing, and perfect will.”-Romans 12:2
God allows storms in our life to prepare us or redirect us on another path, but never assume it is for your harm. He always strengthens us during it and later, we are able to comfort someone else during the same storm.
Seek Him and not the world because the world will always be quick to judge you, rooting for you to fail, or quick to leave you out in the cold. God will help you overcome those insecurities where you are able to fully love, grow, believe, and stand strong against the evil that’s all around. All you have to do is start talking because He is there waiting for you to invite Him into your heart.
“Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky” –Philippians 2:15